Upton Sinclair
The Naturewoman
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HENRY. [Startled; stares at her intently.] No, no . . . you ought not to ask me that. OCEANA. Why not? HENRY. [In a low voice.] Because you know. OCEANA. Yes, that's true. [A pause; she changes the subject.] I have heard my father speak of you often. HENRY. He remembered me, did he? I was only twenty when he went away. OCEANA. He said that he taught you to play single-stick. HENRY. Ah yes, to be sure! OCEANA. He taught me also. HENRY. You? OCEANA. It was our favorite game. HENRY. It's a rather rough game for a woman. OCEANA. I love it. We'll have a bout. HENRY. I'm afraid . . . I don't think I could. OCEANA. Why not? HENRY. [Laughs.] I should find it a psychical impossibility to hit a woman. OCEANA. You might find it a physical impossibility in this case. [With sudden excitement.] Why, my trunks have come! We could have a go before dinner. Couldn't we, Freddy? FREDDY. I suppose so. OCEANA. Oh, it's just what I'm pining for! To get my blood stirring again! And you, too . . . surely you must be chafing, out of patience! [She stops abruptly.] Oh! MRS. MASTERSON. [Enters left.] Henry! HENRY. Yes? MRS. MASTERSON. When did you get here? HENRY. Just a minute ago. MRS. MASTERSON. You've met Anna, I see. OCEANA. Yes, Aunt Sophronia . . . we're getting along famously. MRS. MASTERSON. Letitia's looking for you, Henry. HENRY. Where is she? MRS. MASTERSON. She went home to find you. HENRY. Humph! I came here for her. MRS. MASTERSON. She wants you at once. HENRY. All right. Good-bye, Oceana. OCEANA. Until later. HENRY [exit centre with MRS. MASTERSON.] OCEANA. So that is Henry! Tell me, Ethel, have they any children? ETHEL. Yes . . . two. OCEANA. How long have they been married? ETHEL. Six years. OCEANA. Six years! And is he really happy? ETHEL. Why . . . you know Letitia. OCEANA. Yes, but I don't know Henry. ETHEL. [Laughs.] I guess he's so-so. Like most of us. OCEANA. [Half to herself.] I'll find out for myself. ['Phone rings; FREDDY rises.] What's that? It's the 'phone. [Rises.] I hadn't noticed it before! How interesting! ETHEL. That's so! You never saw one? FREDDY. [At 'phone.] Hello! Yes, this is Mrs. Masterson's. This is her son. Can't I take the message? Oh, from Miss Pilkington. Oh! Why, that's too bad! Why no, of course not. Tell Miss Pilkington we're as sorry as can be! No, I'll attend to it. Good-bye. [Turns.] Miss Pilkington can't come! ETHEL. What? FREDDY. She's slipped in the snow and hurt her ankle. ETHEL. Oh, Freddy! OCEANA. What a shame! [They stare at one another.] ETHEL. Was that she at the 'phone? FREDDY. No, her maid. She's laid up. ETHEL. What in the world will we do? FREDDY. It's too late to notify people. ETHEL. How perfectly beastly! FREDDY. I'll go tell mother. OCEANA. No, wait! FREDDY. What is it? OCEANA. I've an idea. FREDDY. What? OCEANA. Why not let ME take her place? ETHEL. How do you mean? OCEANA. Let me dance! ETHEL. Oh! OCEANA. Why not? I'd love to do it. ETHEL. Oceana! You'd do the Sunrise Dance? OCEANA. Yes; and then if they liked it, I could do some others. ETHEL. Oh, Oceana! How perfectly lovely! But . . . but I wonder if it would be all right. I mean . . . it wouldn't shock them? OCEANA. Why should it, my dear? ETHEL. Is it what they'd call proper? OCEANA. Why, of course, Ethel. How ridiculous! It isn't a sex-dance. It's religious. FREDDY. And the costume? OCEANA. Oh, the costume is beautiful. ETHEL. Then I'll ask mother. [Starts to go.] OCEANA. Wait. Will Henry be there? ETHEL. Of course. OCEANA. Are you sure? ETHEL. Of course. OCEANA. [Eagerly.] Why ask your mother at all? Why not just go ahead and do it? ETHEL. Oceana! OCEANA. Why not? She'd only worry meantime. So let's just wait, and I'll go ahead. ETHEL. Oh, would you dare? OCEANA. Why, of course! She needn't know until almost time. Is this Miss Pilkington known here? ETHEL. No, she's never been in Boston before. FREDDY. Mother met her in London. She promised she'd do her famous Biblical Dances for mother's pet foundling asylum. OCEANA. Well, don't you see? Most of the people wouldn't know till it was all over! And oh, Ethel, it would be such a lark! [ETHEL and FREDDY gaze at each other dubiously.] Who was going to play for Miss Pilkington ? ETHEL. I was. OCEANA. Well, then, you can play for me! You see, Ethel, I'm afraid to tell your mother . . . she mightn't be willing. She wants to suppress me, and oh, I just can't be suppressed! I must have something to do or I'll jump out of my skin, Ethel. Truly, my dear, if this goes on much longer, I'll go out and climb the telegraph pole in front of the house! And if I can only make an impression with my dancing, then I may choose that for my career. I've been thinking of it seriously . . . it's one way, that people might let me preach joy and health to them. If I can't do that, I'll go off and turn into a suffragette, or join the Anarchists, or something worse! ETHEL. Freddy, what do you say? FREDDY. I'll stand my share of the racket. OCEANA. Oh, come on! I'm just wild for some kind of mischief! I could dance like the grandmother of all the witches! Come, let's practice some. Play for me, Ethel! Play! [Pushes her toward the piano; raises her hands in triumph; whispers.] Henry! CURTAIN ACT III [Front part of stage shows an ante-room, with folding doors opening to rear part, which represents a portion of the Masterson parlor, curtained off to form a stage for the dance. Entrances down stage right and left. Up stage, at the left, are the curtains, which part in the middle; they are held by a cord which is fastened by the wall. OCEANA'S trunk stands near entrance, right. Also a couple of chairs.] [At rise: FREDDY stands left, holding curtain cord. OCEANA lies up centre, covered with the "Bridal-robe," asleep. Music of Sunrise Dance begins softly. FREDDY draws back curtains, revealing part of audience, left. He steals off. OCEANA gradually awakens, raises her head, lifts herself to her knees, stretches out her hands in worship to the Sun- god. Then slowly she rises, rapt in wonder. The robe falls back, revealing a filmy costume, primitive, elemental, naive. She begins to sway, and gradually glides into an ecstatic dance, which portrays the joyful awakening of morning.] MRS. MASTERSON. [Enters, left, in great agitation, stares at OCEANA, wrings her hands, paces about, signals to her frantically.] Oh! Oh! [Rushes left and releases curtains, which fall.] OCEANA. [Turns in consternation.] Why! What . . . [Sees MRS. MASTERSON.] Aunt Sophronia! MRS. MASTERSON. How dare you! How dare you! OCEANA. Why, what's the matter? MRS. MASTERSON. You ask me? Oh, oh! OCEANA. Aunt Sophronia, you stopped my dance! MRS. MASTERSON. Hussy! Shameless wanton! You have disgraced me before all the world! OCEANA. [Stares at her, slowly comprehending.] Oh! I see! [Goes to her with signs of distress.] Oh, Aunt Sophronia, I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to displease you! MRS. MASTERSON. Such a humiliation! OCEANA. Aunt Sophronia, you must believe me . . . I had a reason! MRS. MASTERSON. A what? OCEANA. A reason for doing it! I couldn't help it . . . believe me, believe me! MRS. MASTERSON. But what . . . what reason? What do you mean? OCEANA. I can't tell you, Aunt Sophronia. But truly . . . if you knew, you would understand. I simply had to do it. MRS. MASTERSON. [Bewildered.] Is the girl mad? OCEANA. Yes, I believe that is it! I am mad! DR. MASTERSON. [Opens door and enters left.] Oceana ! MRS. MASTERSON. [Hurries to him.] Quincy! Don't come in here! It's not decent! [Pushes him towards door; to OCEANA.] Put something on you, girl! OCEANA. Of course. [Puts on robe.] MRS. MASTERSON. I can't comprehend you! Have you no sense of shame whatever? OCEANA. I had a sense of shame. MRS. MASTERSON. Naked! Almost naked! And in my home! ETHEL. [Enters left.] Mother, what's the matter? MRS. MASTERSON. Ethel! You knew of this outrageous plot . . . OCEANA. One moment, Aunt Sophronia. The blame for this rests upon me alone. I told Ethel that the dance was all right. MRS. MASTERSON. Ethel, leave the room. This is no place for you. ETHEL. Mother! The people are waiting . . . MRS. MASTERSON. Go at once! [To DR. MASTERSON.] Quincy, go out and make some apology to our guests. Explain to them that we had no idea . . . we were imposed upon . . . [Applause heard off left.] OCEANA. Perhaps if your guests were consulted . . . DR. MASTERSON. My dear Sophronia . . . MRS. MASTERSON. [Pushes him off.] Go! Quickly! [Turns to OCEANA.] And as for you, Anna Talbot, there is no more to be said. You have overwhelmed me with shame. OCEANA. Perhaps, Aunt Sophronia, you would prefer I should leave your house? MRS. MASTERSON. [Stiffly.] I would make no objection. OCEANA. I will go as soon as I dress. MRS. MASTERSON. Very well. [Starts towards the door.] I will do what I can to atone for your wantonness. OCEANA. One moment, Aunt Sophronia. MRS. MASTERSON. Well? OCEANA. Ethel tells me that you had something to say to me about grandfather's will. MRS. MASTERSON. Oh! Ethel told you, did she? OCEANA. Yes . . . she wished you to know that she had told me. Of course, feeling towards me as you do, you would hardly expect me to give up any rights that I may have. MRS. MASTERSON. We will be content with what rights the law allows us. OCEANA. What I wished to say was that I would be willing to give Ethel part of my inheritance. MRS. MASTERSON. Oh! OCEANA. I would not give it to Freddy, for he is a man, and I should be breaking the mainspring of his life. But I will give half my money to Ethel, provided that you will consent to let her go with me. MRS. MASTERSON. Oh! So that is your idea! You have already weaned the child from me . . . you have made her a traitor to me; and now you wish to buy her altogether. OCEANA. Aunt Sophronia! MRS. MASTERSON. Your offer is declined. I have no more to say to you. [She sweeps out.] OCEANA. [Stands lost in thought; a smile grows upon her face.] Poor Aunt Sophronia! [Begins to hum, and to sway as in the Sunrise Dance. She completes the dance from where she was interrupted, from an impulse of inner delight.] FREDDY. [Steals in right; watches her, enraptured, as she stands with arms outstretched in ecstasy. He rushes towards her and flings himself at her feet, clasping her hand.] Oceana! OCEANA. Freddy! FREDDY. [Sobbing incoherently.] Oceana! I can't stand it! OCEANA. Why . . . what's the matter? FREDDY. I love you! I love you! I can't live without you! I can't give you up . . . Oceana, have mercy on me! OCEANA. [Gravely.] Freddy! This won't do! No . . . let go of me, please! You must control yourself. FREDDY. Don't send me away! How can you be so cruel to me? OCEANA. But, Freddy, I have told you that I don't love you. [She stands, thinking.] Give me my robe. Now, come sit down here, and listen to me. I am going away, Freddy, and you won't see me any more. And that is for the best . . . for you must get me out of your mind. I don't love you, Freddy. FREDDY. And you never would love me? OCEANA. Never. FREDDY. But why not . . . why not? OCEANA. I can't tell you that. FREDDY. Oh, you are pitiless to me! OCEANA. One does not give love out of pity. That is a cowardly thing to ask. [She pauses.] I must be frank with you, Freddy. You have got to face the facts. When I give my love, it will be to a man; and you are not a man. FREDDY. But I am growing up! OCEANA. No; you don't understand me. You should have grown up years ago. You have been stunted. [She takes his hand.] Look! See the stains! FREDDY. Why. . . OCEANA. Cigarettes! And you want to be a man! FREDDY. Is that so unforgivable? OCEANA. It is only one thing of many, my dear cousin. FREDDY. Oceana, you don't know what men are! OCEANA. Oh, don't I! My dear boy, there is nothing about men that I don't know. I have read Krafft-Ebing and Havelock Ellis . . . I know it all. I know it as a physician knows it. I can read a man's diseases in his complexion . . . I can read his vices in his eyes. Don't you see? FREDDY. [Drops his eyes.] I see! OCEANA. Don't think that I am despising you, dear boy. I know the world you have lived in. FREDDY. But what can I do? OCEANA. You can go away, and make a man of yourself. Go West, get out into the open. Learn to ride and hunt . . . harden your muscles and expand your chest. Until then you're not fit to be the father of any woman's child! FREDDY. Drop college, you mean? OCEANA. Be your own college! The idea of trying to build a brain in a body that's decaying! How could you stand it? Don't you ever feel that you are boiling over . . . that you must have something upon which you can wreak yourself? Don't you feel that you'd like to tame a horse, or to sail a boat in a storm? Don't you ever read about adventures? FREDDY. Yes, I read about them. OCEANA. And don't you ever feel that you must experience them? That you must face some kind of danger . . . do something that you can look back on with pride? Why, see . . . six years ago there came to our island three war-canoes full of savages . . . cannibals they were. If father and I hadn't been there, they'd have wiped our people out. And do you think I'd give up the memory of that struggle? FREDDY. What happened? OCEANA. Fortunately they came in the daytime, so we soon drove them back to their boats. See . . . I'll show you. [She goes to trunk.] Here's one of them. [She lifts up a human skull.] FREDDY. Good Lord! OCEANA. Notice that crack. That was done with a spear . . . by my prince, the one who made me this robe, you know. He cleaned the skull out for me. FREDDY. Rather a ghastly sort of souvenir. OCEANA. Oh, I don't mind that. Father and I found it useful . . . a sort of memento mori. FREDDY. [Looking into trunk.] And what are those things? OCEANA. They are some of my arrows. And these are what we used for bowls . . . turtle-shells, you see. FREDDY. [Pointing.] But those? OCEANA. Oh, my single-sticks. [Lifts them.] That's the game Henry and I were talking about. You ought to get him to teach it to you. FREDDY. What's it like? OCEANA. I'll show you. [She takes from the trunk two leather helmets and gloves.] Here you are! It's an old English game . . . didn't you ever read "Robin Hood"? FREDDY. Oh, it's that? Why, they used to crack each other's heads! OCEANA. The object was to draw first blood. But we used to wear these helmets. You see how we've dented them up? And these old cudgels . . . how they remind me of father! FREDDY. Humph! They're heavy. OCEANA. You take the stick this way; it's a kind of fencing. [She gives him a stick and illustrates the play.] No, so! MRS. MASTERSON. [Enters.] What's this? Is this the way you get ready to leave? OCEANA. [Imploring.] Oh, Aunt Sophronia, I beg your pardon! I got so interested . . . MRS. MASTERSON. Is there no limit to your indiscretion? DR. MASTERSON. [Enters hurriedly.] Sophronia, I beg of you . . . MRS. MASTERSON. I will hear no more of this! I have spoken, once for all . . . DR. MASTERSON. But, my dear . . . MRS. MASTERSON. No more! DR. MASTERSON. But, Sophronia, the people don't understand why . . . . MRS. MASTERSON. It was outrageous! DR. MASTERSON. I know. But since it was begun . . . it's so difficult to explain . . . MRS. MASTERSON. No more of this! I won't hear it! HENRY. [Enters; stares about.] Mrs. Masterson, what have you done here? MRS. MASTERSON. There is no reason why you should concern yourself with it. HENRY. But I wish to know. MRS. MASTERSON. What do you wish to know? HENRY. Did you stop Oceana's dance? MRS. MASTERSON. I did. HENRY. And why? MRS. MASTERSON. Because I saw fit to. HENRY. But your guests . . . MRS. MASTERSON. I will attend to my guests. HENRY. But what is Oceana going to do? MRS. MASTERSON. She is going to leave our house. HENRY. This is a shame. Most of the people enjoyed the dance. They would like to see more . . . MRS. MASTERSON. Henry, you will permit me to decide about what goes on in my home. HENRY. You may decide for yourself. But if Oceana leaves tonight, I will leave also . . . and I will never return. MRS. MASTERSON. Very well, Sir; as you please. OCEANA. Henry, let me have a say. I am obliged to you, but I don't want to stay. It's absurd for me to be here . . . I don't belong here. I've lived all my life under the open sky; I've been free. I've swum several miles every day and run several more; I've hunted and fished and danced and played; and here they dress me up in long skirts and sit me in a corner and tell me I'm a lady! I can stand it just so long . . . I've stood it twenty-four hours, and I feel like a wild animal in a cage. If I don't find something to do . . . something real . . . something that is thrilling . . . truly, I'll murder some one. [She paces the room; DR. and MRS. Masterson shrink away from her.] Yes, I mean it! [With increasing vehemence.] Picture me at home. When I was hungry, I went out for game; and unless I got the game, I stayed hungry. Or I went fishing, and I had to get my canoe through the surf. I had the zest of danger . . . I had real struggle. But here I have nothing. They bring me my food on silver platters; they get up and give me their seats, they even push the doors open in front of me! And so I'm panting for something to do . . . for some opposition, some competition, some conflict. I'm spoiling for a fight! You, Henry, don't you know what I mean? A fight! [With a sharp, swift gesture.] I want to meet some wild animal again! Is there a wild animal in you? [They stare at each other; suddenly she springs and takes the other single-stick from FREDDY.] Here! You know this game! My father taught you! [She holds out one to him.] Come on! HENRY. [Bewildered.] Oceana! This is not the place. OCEANA. It's the place for me! Take it! [She forces it on him.] Now! Forget that I'm a woman! Ready! HENRY. Oceana! No! OCEANA. Are you afraid of your mother-in-law? HENRY. Good heavens! OCEANA. If you're not, you're the only man in the family that isn't. [She drops her robe.] Now! MRS. MASTERSON. This is disgraceful! DR. MASTERSON. Oceana, I beg of you . . . OCEANA. Defend yourself! [She makes a feint at Henry's head, causing him to raise his stick.] Lay on! [She attacks him briskly. He defends himself. There is a swift rattle of the sticks and a vivid conflict.] HENRY. [Laughing.] Oceana, for God's sake, stop! MRS. MASTERSON. Oh, stop them! DR. MASTERSON. Are you mad? FREDDY. Oceana! OCEANA. [Wild with the excitement of the struggle.] Lay on! Ha, ha! Well played! Guard! Once again! Ah, this is what I like! This is what I've been looking for! [They leap here and there; the others dodge out of the way, protesting; the conflict grows more and more strenuous.] LETITIA. [Enters left; screams in terror.] Henry! [They stop; a long pause.] Henry! What does this mean? HENRY. My dear . . . [Stops for lack of breath.] OCEANA. Freddy, my robe. [Wraps herself and sits in chair, smiling.] LETITIA. What does this mean? MRS. MASTERSON. Of all the shameless and insane procedures! LETITIA. Are you mad, Henry? OCEANA. No, no, Letitia. We know just what we're about. You see, your husband and I are considering whether or not we shall fall in love with each other. LETITIA. [Wildly.] Oh! MRS. MASTERSON. Monstrous! DR. MASTERSON. Oceana! LETITIA. How dare you? OCEANA. He's interested, you know. I've got hold of him. LETITIA. [Furiously.] Henry, you stand there and permit her to insult me . . . HENRY. My dear, believe me . . . OCEANA. [Sharply.] Stop, Henry! [A pause.] Look at me! HENRY. Well? OCEANA. Don't tell her a lie. A lie is the thing I never pardon. HENRY. Why . . . why . . . [Falls silent.] MRS. MASTERSON. Henry! FREDDY. Gee whiz! LETITIA. Henry, I demand that you come home with me instantly. OCEANA. Don't go. LETITIA. [Almost speechless.] If you stay here, you stay alone! OCEANA. [Rises, casts aside her robe, stretches wide her arms.] Letitia! Look at me! Am I the sort of woman that you can safely leave your husband alone with? LETITIA. [Stares at her terrified, then bursts into tears and flings herself into HENRY'S arms.] Henry! OCEANA. Ah, yes! That is safer! HENRY. [Supports LETITIA.] My dear! My dear! LETITIA. Come home with me! OCEANA. God, man, how I pity you! Bound in chains to a woman like that! And with all the world conspiring to hold you fast! How can you bear it? Do you expect to bear it forever? What will become of your soul? Oh, I pity you! I pity you! LETITIA. [Hysterically.] Henry, take me home! Take me home at once! HENRY. Yes, my dear, yes! OCEANA. What is the spell they've laid upon you? You make me think of Gulliver . . . a giant stretched out upon the ground, impotent, bound fast with a million tiny threads! Wake up, man . . . wake up! You've only one life to live. You act as if you had a thousand. LETITIA. Mother! MRS. MASTERSON. How long is this to continue? LETITIA. Henry, won't you stop listening to her? OCEANA. He's not listening to me, Letitia. He's listening to the voice of the universe, calling to him. The voice of unborn generations, clamoring, agonizing! What do you suppose it means, man . . . this storm that has shaken us? It is Nature's trumpet-call . . . it is the shout of discovery of the powers within us! For ages upon ages life has been preparing it . . . and now suddenly we meet . . . the barriers are shattered and flung down, the tides of being sweep us together! MRS. MASTERSON. Oh! This is outrageous! DR. MASTERSON. Oceana, Henry is married! OCEANA. Married! Married! That is the sorcery with which you bind him! No longer a man at all, but some aborted thing . . . a relic! An eunuch! They mumble their incantations over you . . . the spell is done, and you sink back, cowed and whimpering! You are a machine, a domestic utensil! Never again are you to love and to dare to create No, there are other things in life for you . . . bread and butter, cooks and dinner parties, billiards and bridge-whist . . . that is your portion! A married man! LETITIA. [Terrified.] Henry! For God's sake! [He no longer returns her embraces, but stares at Oceana, fascinated.] OCEANA. Don't you see, man? It's a dream! A nightmare! Rouse yourself, lift your head . . . and it's gone! Life is calling! Come away! LETITIA. [Frantically.] Mother! Mother! MRS. MASTERSON. Quincy, if you can't stop this outrage, I will! Call the servants. [She starts toward Oceana.] OCEANA. Call the police! Call your guests! Anything . . . bring the world down on him. Terrify him with conventions, beat him into subjection again! MRS. MASTERSON. Wanton! OCEANA. Wanton! Oh, how well you understand me! I, with my hunger for righteousness . . . I, who have disciplined myself as an anchorite, who have served as a priestess of life! And you, with your formulas and your superstitions . . . you pass judgment upon me! [With terrific energy.] See! This man and I, we are the gateway to the future! And you seek to bar it! By what right do you stand in the path of posterity . . . you tormentors of the ideal, you assassins of human hope! MRS. MASTERSON. [Almost striking her.] Oh! Oh! And my children have to listen to this! [She whirls about.] Ethel! Freddy! Go out of the room! ETHEL. I am going with Oceana. MRS. MASTERSON. What? ETHEL. Some day . . . if not now. She's perfectly right. Letitia has no business to keep him. She never would have got him if she hadn't played a part. MRS. MASTERSON. Ethel Masterson! LETITIA. Little vixen! FREDDY. [Rushes to OCEANA and seizes her hand.] Oceana! Let me go with you, too! DR. MASTERSON. What next! OCEANA. No, Freddy . . . no! [She withdraws her hand and holds it out to Henry.] Henry! Come! [A tense pause; all stare at Henry. He never takes his eyes from Oceana. Slowly, like one hypnotized, he draws away from his wife's embrace, and moves towards Oceana. He seizes her hand. All stand transfixed. Silence.] [CURTAIN] ACT IV [The scene shows the living-room of a bungalow. Large stone fireplace centre; windows and window seats on each side; French windows leading to piazza right; piano between them; door left to another room; large mirror beside it. Centre table, rustic chairs, deer-heads and skins, Indian blankets, etc.] [At rise: The stage is empty.] OCEANA. [Laughs off.] Oh, say, but that was an adventure! [Enters; glowing and exultant from a long mountain walk. She wears a "Rosalind" costume, brown, with soft boots, gauntlet gloves and light fur about the neck; carries a pair of snow-shoes, which she has taken off and from which she knocks the snow.] HENRY. [Follows.] You like the mountains! OCEANA. Oh, my dear! They are marvellous! I've never imagined anything like it . . . to be able to see so much of the world at once. It's the way you think of heaven. HENRY. You don't mind the cold? OCEANA. I find I prefer it. I think I shall stay here forever. It tunes you up so! It makes you quite drunk! [Looks at herself in the mirror.] I look cute in this, don't I? HENRY. You look like a fairy-story! OCEANA. I ought to have had sense enough to think of a theatrical costumer in the beginning. [Stretches her arms.] Oh, I feel so wonderful! Ha, ha, ha! I don't know whether it's the mountain air . . . or whether it's because I'm in love! HENRY. [Seizes her hand.] Sweetheart! OCEANA. [Stares at him.] How wonderful it is! Beyond all believing! I'm stunned by it . . . afraid of it. Tell me, Hal, were you ever drunk? HENRY. [Laughs.] Once or twice. OCEANA. [Seriously.] I never was. But I've watched my people sometimes and tried to understand it. And it's just that. Nature has made us drunk! HENRY. And that is what frightens you? OCEANA. She has her purposes, Hal; and I don't want to be her blind victim. But then, I look at you again, and wonder leaps up in me . . . love, such as I never conceived of before; power . . . vision without end. I seem to be a hundred times myself! It is as if barriers were broken down within me . . . I see into new vistas of life. I understand . . . I exult! Oh, Hal, I shall never be the same again! HENRY. Nor I; I look back at myself as I was a week ago, and I can't believe it OCEANA. With me it is like a great fountain inside. It surges up, and I cannot be still! I want to laugh . . . to sing! I have to dance it out of me! Do you know Anitra's Dance, Hal? HENRY. Yes, of course. OCEANA. [Begins to sing the music to herself and playfully to dance. The enthusiasm of it takes hold of her, and she dances more quickly.] Play it, Hal! Play! [HENRY sits at piano and plays Anitra's Dance; she dances tumultuously, ending in a whirlwind of excitement.] Oh! [As Henry rises, she flies to him and he clasps her passionately.] HENRY. Sweetheart! OCEANA. [Panting.] Oh, Hal, I'm so happy! So happy! [She sobs upon his shoulder, then looks at him through her tears.] Oh, if I only dared let myself go! HENRY. Why not, dearest? OCEANA. It sweeps me off my feet! And I have to hold myself in. HENRY. Why? Don't I love you? OCEANA. Yes, I know. But I'm terrified at myself; I'm losing my self- control. And I promised father. HENRY. What? OCEANA. That I would never do it. "Never feel an emotion," he would say, "that you could not stop feeling if you wished to." HENRY. But, sweetheart . . . why so much distrust? Why should we wait, when everything in us cries out against it? OCEANA. Don't say that to me now, Hal! HENRY. But why not? OCEANA. This is not the time for such a thought. You know it! HENRY. Dearest . . . OCEANA. [Passionately.] Ah, don't put it all on me! Don't make it too hard for me! HENRY. But if I only knew . . . OCEANA. You will know before long. Ah, Hal, see how I'm situated. I've broken all the laws. I've no precedent to help me . . . I have to work it all out for myself. I shall have to bear the scorn of the world; and oh, think if I had to bear the scorn of my own conscience! Don't you see? HENRY. Yes, I see. But . . . OCEANA. I have chosen a certain course. I have forced myself to be calm, to think it out in the cold light of reason, to decide what is right for me to do. And now I must keep to my resolution. You would not want our love to lead me into shame! HENRY. No! OCEANA. Do you read Nietzsche, Henry? HENRY. He is a mere name to me. OCEANA. I will give you some lines of Nietzsche's. "Canst thou give thyself thy good and thine evil, and hang thy will above thee as thy law? Canst thou be thine own judge, and avenger of thy law? Fearful is it to be alone with the judge and the avenger of thy law. So is a stone flung out into empty space and into the icy breath of isolation." HENRY. That's all right . . . but if you expect Letitia to face this problem in any such way, you will be sadly disappointed. OCEANA. That's none of my affair. All I have to do is to give her a chance. If she cannot face the facts, she has passed sentence upon herself. HENRY. [Laughs.] All right, my dear. It will certainly be a scene to watch! OCEANA. You think she will come? HENRY. Oh, she'll certainly come. OCEANA. And she won't bring her mother? HENRY. I can't tell about that. OCEANA. If she does, we'll simply have to send her down to the village . . . I won't talk in Aunt Sophronia's presence. HENRY. I was perfectly explicit on that point. [Takes paper from table.] Here's the telegram: "Come to the bungalow immediately, upon a matter of extreme urgency. Do not bring your mother." OCEANA. Certainly that is clear enough. HENRY. And bewildering enough. But I suppose they are prepared for anything by now. OCEANA. It's past the time. [Looking from window.] We should be able to see a sleigh. HENRY. No, the road turns behind that hillock there. OCEANA. But look! HENRY. What? OCEANA. There's some one coming afoot. HENRY. Where? OCEANA. Round that side! By the path! Why, it's Ethel! HENRY. Good Lord! Ethel! OCEANA. She's come up from the village afoot. HENRY. Well, of all the apparitions! OCEANA. Run help her, Henry. She's running. [Opens window and calls.] Ethel! [HENRY exit hurriedly.] Why, the poor, dear child! I wonder if she came in Letitia's stead! But then . . . why wouldn't she get a sleigh? [Calls.] Ethel! What's the matter? HENRY. [Off.] She says Letitia is coming! OCEANA. Oh! HENRY. She's just behind! OCEANA. But, Ethel, what are you doing here? ETHEL. [Off, breathless.] Wait! OCEANA. Why, you poor child, you're exhausted. What in the world . . . ETHEL. Wait. [Enters, breathless, half carried by Henry.] OCEANA. [Pounces upon her.] Ethel! Of all the surprises! You dear thing! [Embraces her, shakes snow from her.] What in the world has happened? ETHEL. Oceana, I ran away! OCEANA. You ran away? ETHEL. To you! I couldn't stand it! I must be with you, Oceana--no matter how wicked it is, I must be with you! OCEANA. [Breathlessly.] Ethel! ETHEL. Yes, I'm desperate . . . I'll die if I have to stay at home. OCEANA. My dear, dear girl! [Clasps her.] ETHEL. You won't send me back? OCEANA. Never! ETHEL. [Wildly.] But, Oceana, Letitia is coming! OCEANA. Yes? ETHEL. I took a train from Boston. And when I saw her come aboard, imagine how I felt! I hid . . . she didn't see me. And I got off the train first and dodged out of sight. I ran all the way. I suppose she stopped to get a sleigh. HENRY. It's all right, Ethel . . . we knew she was coming. ETHEL. You knew it? OCEANA. Yes, Henry sent for her. You see, Letitia and I have to talk things out. ETHEL. Well, of all the . . . [Stops, dazed.] OCEANA. [Laughs.] That's all right, dear. We know what we're doing. But it was good of you to try to save us! HENRY. Listen! OCEANA. Ah! HENRY. The sleigh-bells! OCEANA. She's here! ETHEL. [Clasping her.] Oceana! OCEANA. What is it, dear? ETHEL. Don't let her take me back home? OCEANA. But how can she take you, dear, if you won't go? ETHEL. She might persuade you. OCEANA. Never fear, Ethel . . . we'll stand by you, won't we, Hal? HENRY. Yes. ETHEL. She'll threaten to make me go. OCEANA. Her mind will be taken up with other things, Ethel. ETHEL. But mother will come! And she'll command me to return. I'm not of age, you know. OCEANA. But then, if you won't obey? Will she send for the police? ETHEL. No . . . hardly that. OCEANA. All right, then, dear. I'll save you . . . trust me. I mean to give you a chance for life. ETHEL. And, oh, Oceana . . . what do you think? Freddy's run away, too! OCEANA. What? HENRY. Where to? ETHEL. He's gone out West! OCEANA. You don't mean it! HENRY. What for? ETHEL. He says he's going to be a cowboy. He's going to make a man of himself. He left a letter to father. OCEANA. Why, the dear boy! ETHEL. [Mysteriously.] Oceana, do you know what was the matter? OCEANA. No . . . what? ETHEL. I think I know. He was in love with you! OCEANA. I shouldn't wonder, my dear. [Laughs.] But don't tell Henry . . . he'll be jealous! [Sound of sleigh-bells louder.] ETHEL. Here she is! OCEANA. You go into the next room now. It wouldn't be considered proper for you to hear what we're going to say. ETHEL. Of all the adventures! [Exit.] OCEANA. [Smiles at Henry.] Now then! HENRY. You wanted it, my dear! [They turn, gazing right. The sleigh-bells have come nearer, then stopped. Some one is heard to step upon the piazza and stamp the snow from the feet.] LETITIA. [Enters right, stares at Oceana and screams.] Oceana! OCEANA. Letitia . . . LETITIA. [Gasps for breath.] Henry! How dared you bring me here to meet that woman? OCEANA. Letitia . . . LETITIA. Don't speak to me! Don't you dare to speak to me! [She sinks down by table and bursts into tears.] Oh, how horrible! How horrible! As if I had not humiliations enough already! HENRY. [Taking step toward her.] Letitia . . . OCEANA. [With a swift gesture.] Wait! LETITIA. Oh, who would have thought it possible! To bring me 'way up here . . . OCEANA. You might as well understand at the outset . . . the thing cannot be done that way. LETITIA. [With concentrated hatred.] You dare! OCEANA. We have sent for you . . . LETITIA. WE have sent for you! OCEANA. Because we wished to talk things out with you in a sensible way. And you'll have to make up your mind to control yourself. LETITIA. [Sobbing.] Henry, you permit this shameful humiliation! OCEANA. Henry has nothing to do with this affair, Letitia. It is I who have to talk to you. LETITIA. [Bursts into hysterical weeping again.] Oh, that I should have lived to see this! OCEANA. You will find out before you get through that I mean to deal with you fairly. But you cannot accomplish anything by hysterics. LETITIA. Oh, oh, oh! OCEANA. And you had best believe me; you injure your case by refusing to act rationally. LETITIA. [Looks up, frightened.] What do you want with me? OCEANA. [Quietly.] In the first place, Letitia, I want to convey to you the information that your husband's relationship and mine has so far been what you would call innocent. LETITIA. What? OCEANA. I was a virgin when I came to Boston, and I am a virgin still. LETITIA, And you expect me to believe that? OCEANA. My dear, I don't care in the least whether you believe it or not. LETITIA. [Faintly.] But . . . OCEANA. What reason would I have to fear you? He is mine, if I want him. LETITIA. [Dazed.] Then what . . . why are you here? Why . . . OCEANA. I came here because I wished to get acquainted with him. And what chance have a man and woman to get acquainted with each other in the conventional world? LETITIA. [Stares at her; then, faintly.] But what . . . OCEANA. I wished to try him out . . . in body, mind and soul. I wished to know if he was the man for me. LETITIA. [Rushes to Henry.] Oh! Have you no decency left? Have you no mercy on me? What has come over you? HENRY. Letitia . . . OCEANA. Let me attend to this, Hal. LETITIA. Hal! OCEANA. That a woman could be married to a man for six years and continue to call him Henry, speaks volumes for the romance of their relationship! LETITIA. [To Henry.] Where's your sense of shame? OCEANA. You are taking the wrong line, Letitia. No such consideration has a moment's weight with us. LETITIA. [Catches her breath.] Since it seems that I am here at your mercy, I ask to know your pleasure? OCEANA. The reason that we have sent for you is that I might assure myself upon two points . . . first, as to whether your husband still loves you, and second, as to whether you still love him. LETITIA. You doubt that I love him? OCEANA. So far, Letitia, your actions have proceeded, not from love of him, but from hatred of me. LETITIA. Oh! And if I fail to measure up to your tests of love . . . OCEANA. [Triumphantly.] Then he is mine! LETITIA. And the fact that he is my husband . . . OCEANA. Is nothing! LETITIA. The fact that he vowed to keep faith with me . . . OCEANA. Is nothing! LETITIA. That I am dependent upon him for support . . . OCEANA. You have money of your own, Letitia. LETITIA. Do you suppose I am thinking about money! I mean his protection. OCEANA. A person who confesses to the need of protection has written himself down an inferior. [A pause.] You see, Letitia, times have changed; our ideas of marriage have charged. In the beginning a woman was a man's economic dependent; now that the man has become ashamed of that, he is made the woman's spiritual dependent. You play upon his sense of chivalry, his sympathy, his pity; and you prey upon him, you devour him alive. But the time has come when that must cease, Letitia . . . man will not always be a domestic appendage! And you will simply have to face this new situation. Do you still possess your husband's love? Do you really love him? Nothing else will count . . . none of your "rights" . . . we are not afraid of man or devil. LETITIA. [Gasps.] Oh! [Turns to HENRY.] Henry, will you tell me what all this means? Can it be that you assent to these outrageous ideas? HENRY. I assent to them, Letitia. It may be that you still love me, but you have given me few signs of it. You have been . . . you are . . . a selfish woman. LETITIA. Henry! HENRY. How often do you give a thought to me . . . to the needs of my nature? You think of your whims and your prejudices; you think of your social position . . . of your "world" and its conventions. You think of what your mother approves, of what your father approves, of what this person will say and what that person will say. And I follow you about . . . I play my part in the hollow show that you call life; but all the time my heart is crying out in me . . . I am starving . . . starving! LETITIA. [Startled.] Henry! OCEANA. Ah! She is beginning to see it! LETITIA. [Stretches out her arms and totters towards him, weeping.] Henry! I love you! [Wildly.] Believe me! Believe me! I love you! Don't you remember when you were ill three years ago . . . how I nursed you and watched over you? You knew that I loved you then. Why, you said I'd worn myself to a shadow! You kissed me, and told me I'd saved your life! And when I was ill myself, and you thought I was dying . . . didn't you realize that you loved me? And the children? Have you never given a thought to them? Are they nothing to you? And you to them? You know that you love them, Henry . . . you dare not deny it. Are they to be without a father all their lives? [Falls into his arms.] My husband! HENRY. [Catches her, deeply moved.] Letitia! OCEANA. [Has been watching them intently; now, startled and pained.] Ah I thought so! [She turns away; supports herself by the table; whispers.] That settles it! LETITIA. Henry, if I have been selfish, I am sorry! I humble myself before you . . . I beg you for forgiveness! Henry, I do love you! Don't you believe me? HENRY. [Faintly.] I believe you. OCEANA. [Clenches her hands and turns resolutely.] You see, Hal, I knew it! [He bows his head.] You can't get away from her. [She pauses.] You understand it all now . . . what my instinct told me. You still love her, you still belong to her. You would have gone away with me, and you would still have been thinking about her--worrying about her. It would have been tearing your soul in half. [She waits; he does not look at her; she goes on, half to convince herself.] She is not big enough to give you up. She could not say, "Oceana is young and needs you; you love Oceana, and she will make you happy. Go with her." No, she would think of the world and its conventions . . . she would be jealous and bitter. She would eat her heart out . . . she would tear herself to pieces! And that would tear you to pieces . . . you could never forget it. And there are the children, Hal. It's true that you love them; you think about them all the time . . . I know, for you speak of them. And she could take them away from you, legally . . . how much chance would they ever have in life, if she and her mother had the bringing up of them? Don't you see, Hal? What can we do? LETITIA. [Clinging to Henry's bosom.] Henry, I love you! OCEANA. I want to play the game generously, Letitia; but it is all I can do not to despise you . . . because he loves you, and it has meant so little to you, you have done so little in return. That is the curse of this thing you call marriage. You say to yourself that you've got him . . . the law and the conventions will keep him for you . . . and so you can treat him as you please. You'll take him off with you now, and you'll set to work to get right back where you were before . . . yes, she will, Hal. She'll try to wheedle you into backing down from this position. She will weep and she will scold. But you stand firm . . . stand firm! What we did was right . . . it was noble and true, and if more married people did such things, it would be better for them. LETITIA. [Clinging to Henry.] Henry, come home with me! HENRY. All right, I'll come. [He does not lift his head.] OCEANA. Look at me. It's all right, Hal . . . it's all right. [She speaks with intensity; they gaze into each other's eyes.] HENRY. [Stretches out his hand to her.] Oeeana . . . I'm sorry . . . OCEANA. [With sudden emotion.] No, Hal! Go . . . go quickly! Please! [He goes out, right, with Letitia; Oceana stands gazing straight ahead. Sound of sleigh-bells heard. Suddenly she sinks into a chair, bows her head upon the table, and bursts into tears.] ETHEL. [Opens door, left, and stands gazing at Oceana in alarm, then runs to her and sinks upon her knees before her.] Oceana! OCEANA. [Sobbing.] He's gone! Gone! ETHEL. He left you? OCEANA. I gave him up! I sent him away. Oh, Ethel, Ethel . . . what am I going to do? ETHEL. Oceana! OCEANA. Oh, how I loved him! I didn't realize how I loved him! The whole face of the world was changed . . . and now, now . . . how shall I bear it? [She stares ahead of her.] Oh, Ethel, tell me I did right to give him up. ETHEL. Why did you do it? OCEANA. I saw he loved her, and I had to give him up. It would have been to tear his soul in half! But now that he's gone, I don't see how I can bear it! [A pause; she is lost in thought; she whispers with great intensity.] There is a vision . . . it haunts me . . . it cries out in me in a voice of agony! ETHEL. What? OCEANA. A little child! You have no idea . . . how real it was to me! It fell out of the skies upon me! The thought never left me. I heard its voice . . . its laughter; I saw its smile. It called to me all day, and it played with me in my dreams; I felt its little hands upon me . . . its lips upon my breast. And it's gone! ETHEL. Your child! OCEANA. And his! And think . . . think of the awfulness of it . . . it was hovering at the gates of life! It wanted to be! And I trembled . . . I suffered; at any moment I might have said the word, and it would have come. But I did not say the word . . . and it is gone. And now it will never come! Never . . . never! I have murdered the child! My child! ETHEL. No, no, Oceana! OCEANA. God! I can't understand it! What does it mean? Did it exist when I thought of it? Does it exist now? Who can tell me? ETHEL. I don't know, Oceana. OCEANA. The strangeness of it! Sometimes my whole being rises up in revolt . . . I could tear the skies apart, to wrest the secret from them! You see, we don't know anything. We don't know what's right, we don't know what's wrong. We're in a trap! [She rises suddenly.] No, no, I mustn't talk that way. I've lost my self-control. I let myself go, and I had no right to. Now, what shall I do? Wait, dear . . . let me think, let me think calmly. [Stares about her.] I want to remember what father said to me; what I promised to do. See, Ethel . . . the sun is setting. Look at the sky! And it's the last day of the month, isn't it? ETHEL. Yes. OCEANA. If father had been here we should have sat us down to one of our services! Look here. [She goes to trunk, and takes out a human skull.] Ah, old friend! ETHEL. [Shocked.] Oceana! OCEANA. He came from the Marquesas, I think. And here's where he was hit with the spear. You see? Sit down. [She places the skull before her.] See, Ethel-- he used to smile. And now and then he had the toothache . . . see that? He took himself very seriously; he was all wrapped up in the things that went on in this little cracked skull. But he lacked imagination. He never foresaw that somebody would carry him off to the New Hampshire mountains, and make him the text for a Hamlet soliloquy. Alas, poor Yorick! He did not know that he was immortal, you see; that life proceeded from him . . . unrolling itself for generation after generation without end; that all that he did would be perpetuated . . . that where he sinned we would suffer, and where he fought we would be strong. He did not know that he was the creator, the mystic fountain of an unexplored stream . . . the maker of an endless future . . . [She stops; a spasm of pain crosses her face.] Oh, Ethel! [Clasps her hand.] It is terrible to die young, is it not? ETHEL. Yes. OCEANA. Then how much worse is it to die before you are born! To be strangled in the idea . . . to be stifled by a cowardly thought! ETHEL. What do you mean? OCEANA. Oh, Ethel, stay by me, will you? Promise me you will stay by me. ETHEL. I will! OCEANA. I'm frightened, Ethel . . . frightened at myself. I've done wrong . . . I've committed a crime! I ought not to have let him go! I ought not to have let him go! ETHEL. Henry? OCEANA. No, we mustn't speak of him again. I can't bear to hear his name. I have failed . . . I have failed. I've been crushed by civilization ! [Starts up.] But there's my island! There's the white beach, shining in the moonlight, and the great breakers rolling in, and the palm trees rustling in the wind. Let us go together . . . to my island! Let us go back and get healed, before we try to face this world again! [CURTAIN]
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