Sylvia sat dumb with questions she would not utter, hovering on the
tip of her tongue. 

He took her silence for acquiesence, and went on, quickly, "Let me
give you an illustration. A friend of mine whom you know well--I
might as well tell you his name, it was Freddie Atkins--was at
supper with some theatrical women; and one of them, not having any
idea that Freddie knew me, proceeded to talk about me, and how she
had met me, and where we had been together--about my yacht, and my
castle in Scotland, and I don't know what all else. It seems that
this woman had been my mistress for several years; she told quite
glibly about me and my habits. Freddie got the woman's picture, on
some pretext or other, and brought it to me; I had never laid eyes
on her in my life. He could hardly believe it, and to prove it to
him I offered to meet the woman, under another name. We sat in a
restaurant, and she told the tale to Freddie and myself
together--until finally he burst out laughing, and told her who I
was." 

He paused, to let this sink in. "Now, suppose your friend, Mary
Abbott, had met that woman! I don't imagine she is particularly
careful whom she associates with; and suppose she had come and told
you that she knew such a woman--what would you have said? Can you
deny that the tale would have made an impression on you? Yet, I've
not the least doubt there are scores of women who made such tales
about me a part of their stock in trade; there are thousands of
women whose fortunes would be made for life if they could cause such
a tale to be believed. And imagine how well-informed they would be,
if anyone were to ask them concerning my habits, and the reason why
our baby is blind! I tell you, when the rumour concerning our child
has begun to spread, there will be ten thousand people in New York
city who will know of first-hand, personal knowledge exactly how it
happened, and how you took it, and everything that I said to you
about it. There will be sneers in the society-papers, from New York
to San Francisco; and smooth-tongued gentlemen calling, to give us
hints that we can stop these sneers by purchasing a de-luxe edition
of a history of our ancestors for six thousand dollars. There will
be well-meaning and beautiful-souled people who will try to get you
to confide in them, and then use their knowledge of your domestic
unhappiness to blackmail you; there will be threats of law-suits
from people who will claim that they have contracted a disease from
you or your child--your laundress, perhaps, or your maid, or one of
these nurses----" 

"Oh, stop! stop!" she cried. 

"I am quite aware," he said, quietly, "that these things are not
calculated to preserve the peace of mind of a young mother. You are
horrified when I tell you of them--yet you clamour for the right to
have Mrs. Abbott tell you of them! I warn you, Sylvia--you have
married a rich man, who is exposed to the attacks of cunning and
unscrupulous enemies. You, as his wife, are exactly as much
exposed--possibly even more so. Therefore when I see you entering
into what I know to be a dangerous intimacy, I must have the right
to say to you, This shall stop, and I tell you, there can never be
any safety or peace of mind for either of us, so long as you attempt
to deny me that right." 

5. Dr. Gibson took his departure three or four days later; and
before he went, he came to give her his final blessing; talking to
her, as he phrased it, "like a Dutch uncle." "You must understand,"
he said, "I am almost old enough to be your grandfather. I have four
sons, anyone of whom might have married you, if they had had the
good fortune to be in Castleman County at the critical time. So you
must let me be frank with you." 

Sylvia indicated that she was willing. 

"We don't generally talk to women about these matters; because
they've no standard by which to judge, and they almost always fly
off and have hysterics. Their case seems to them exceptional and
horrible, their husbands the blackest criminals in the whole tribe."

He paused for a moment. "Now, Mrs. van Tuiver, the disease which has
made your baby blind is probably what we call gonorrhea. When it
gets into the eyes, it has very terrible results. But it doesn't
often get into the eyes, and for the most part it's a trifling
affair, that we don't worry about. I know there are a lot of
new-fangled notions, but I'm an old man, with experience of my own,
and I have to have things proven to me. I know that with as much of
this disease as we doctors see, if it was a deadly disease, there'd
be nobody left alive in the world. As I say, I don't like to discuss
it with women; but it was not I who forced the matter upon your
attention----" 

"Pray go on, Dr. Gibson," she said. "I really wish to know all that
you will tell me." 

"The question has come up, how was this disease brought to your
child? Dr. Perrin suggested that possibly he--you understand his
fear; and possibly he is correct. But it seems to me an illustration
of the unwisdom of a physician's departing from his proper duty,
which is to cure people. If you wish to find out who brought a
disease, what you need is a detective. I know, of course, that there
are people who can combine the duties of physician and
detective--and that without any previous preparation or study of
either profession." 

He waited for this irony to sink in; and Sylvia also waited,
patiently. 

At last he resumed, "The idea has been planted in your mind that
your husband brought the trouble; and that idea is sure to stay
there and fester. So it becomes necessary for someone to talk to you
straight. Let me tell you that eight men out of ten have had this
disease at some time in their lives; also that very few of them were
cured of it when they thought they were. You have a cold: and then
next month, you say the cold is gone. So it is, for practical
purposes. But if I take a microscope, I find the germs of the cold
still in your membranes, and I know that you can give a cold, and a
bad cold, to some one else who is sensitive. It is true that you may
go through all the rest of your life without ever being entirely rid
of that cold. You understand me?" 

"Yes," said Sylvia, in a low voice. 

"I say eight out of ten. Estimates would differ. Some doctors would
say seven out of ten--and some actual investigations have shown nine
out of ten. And understand me, I don't mean bar-room loafers and
roustabouts. I mean your brothers, if you have any, your cousins,
your best friends, the men who came to make love to you, and whom
you thought of marrying. If you had found it out about any one of
them, of course you'd have cut the acquaintance; yet you'd have been
doing an injustice--for if you had done that to all who'd ever had
the disease, you might as well have retired to a nunnery at once." 

The old gentleman paused again; then frowning at her under his bushy
eye-brows, he exclaimed, "I tell you, Mrs. van Tuiver, you're doing
your husband a wrong. Your husband loves you, and he's a good
man--I've had some talks with him, and I know he's not got nearly so
much on his conscience as the average husband. I'm a Southern man,
and I know these gay young bloods you've danced and flirted with all
your young life. Do you think if you went probing into their secret
affairs, you'd have had much pleasure in their company afterwards? I
tell you again, you're doing your husband a wrong! You're doing
something that very few men would stand, as patiently as he has
stood it so far." 

All this time Sylvia had given no sign. So the old gentleman began
to feel a trifle uneasy. "Mind you," he said, "I'm not saying that
men ought to be like that. They deserve a good hiding, most of
them--they're very few of them fit to associate with a good woman.
I've always said that no man is really good enough for a good woman.
But my point is that when you select one to punish, you select not
the guiltiest one, but simply the one who's had the misfortune to
fall under suspicion. And he knows that's not fair; he'd have to be
more than human if deep in his soul he did not bitterly resent it.
You understand me?" 

"I understand," she replied, in the same repressed voice. 

And the doctor rose and laid his hand on her shoulder. "I'm going
home," he said--"very probably we'll never meet each other again. I
see you making a great mistake, laying up unhappiness for yourself
in the future; and I wish to prevent it if I can. I wish to persuade
you to face the facts of the world in which we live. So I am going
to tell you something that I never expected I should tell to a
lady." 

He was looking her straight in the eye. "You see me--I'm an old man,
and I seem fairly respectable to you. You've laughed at me some, but
even so, you've found it possible to get along with me without too
great repugnance. Well, I've had this disease; I've had it, and
nevertheless I've raised six fine, sturdy children. More than that--
I'm not free to name anybody else, but I happen to know positively
that among the men your husband employs on this island there are two
who have the disease right now. And the next charming and well-bred
gentleman you are introduced to, just reflect that there are at
least eight chances in ten that he has had the disease, and perhaps
three or four in ten that he has it at the minute he's shaking hands
with you. And now you think that over, and stop tormenting your poor
husband!" 

6. One of the first things I did when I reached New York was to send
a little love-letter to Sylvia. I said nothing that would distress
her; I merely assured her that she was in my thoughts, and that I
should look to see her in New York, when we could have a good talk.
I put this in a plain envelope, with a typewritten address, and
registered it in the name of my stenographer. The receipt came back,
signed by an unknown hand, probably the secretary's. I found out
later that the letter never got to Sylvia. 

No doubt it was the occasion of renewed efforts upon her husband's
part to obtain from her the promise he desired. He would not be put
off with excuses; and at last he got her answer, in the shape of a
letter which she told him she intended to mail to me. In this letter
she announced her decision that she owed it to her baby to avoid all
excitement and nervous strain during the time that she was nursing
it. Her husband had sent for the yacht, and they were going to
Scotland, and in the winter to the Mediterranean and the Nile.
Meantime she would not correspond with me; but she wished me to know
that there was to be no break in our friendship, and that she would
see me upon her return to New York. 

"There is much that has happened that I do not understand," she
added. "For the present, however, I shall try to dismiss it from my
mind. I am sure you will agree that it is right for me to give a
year to being a mother; as I wish you to feel perfectly at peace in
the meantime, I mention that it is my intention to be a mother only,
and not a wife. I am showing this letter to my husband before I mail
it, so that he may know exactly what I am doing, and what I have
decided to do in the future." 

"Of course," he said, after reading this, "you may send the letter,
if you insist--but you must realize that you are only putting off
the issue." 

She made no reply; and at last he asked, "You mean you intend to
defy me in this matter?" 

"I mean," she replied, quietly, "that for the sake of my baby I
intend to put off all discussion for a year." 

7. I figured that I should hear from Claire Lepage about two days
after I reached New York; and sure enough, she called me on the
'phone. "I want to see you at once," she declared; and her voice
showed the excitement under which she was labouring. 

"Very well," I said, "come down." 

She entered my little living-room. It was the first time she had
ever visited me, but she did not stop for a glance about her; she
did not even stop to sit down. "Why didn't you tell me that you knew
Sylvia Castleman?" she cried. 

"My dear woman," I replied, "I was not under the least obligation to
tell you." 

"You have betrayed me!" she exclaimed, wildly. 

"Come, Claire," I said, after I had looked her in the eye a bit to
calm her. "You know quite well that I was under no bond of secrecy.
And, besides, I haven't done you any harm." 

"Why did you do it?" I regret to add that she swore. 

"I never once mentioned your name, Claire." 

"How much good do you imagine that does me? They have managed to
find out everything. They caught me in a trap." 

I reminded myself that it would not do to show any pity for her.
"Sit down, Claire," I said. "Tell me about it." 

She cried, in a last burst of anger, "I don't want to talk to you!" 

"All right," I answered. "But then, why did you come?" 

There was no reply to that. She sat down. "They were too much for
me!" she lamented. "If I'd had the least hint, I might have held my
own. As it was--I let them make a fool of me." 

"You are talking hieroglyphics to me. Who are 'they'?" 

"Douglas, and that old fox, Rossiter Torrance." 

"Rossiter Torrance?" I repeated the name, and then suddenly
remembered. The thin-lipped old family lawyer! 

"He sent up his card, and said he'd been sent to see me by Mary
Abbot. Of course, I had no suspicion--I fell right into the trap. We
talked about you for a while--he even got me to tell him where you
lived; and then at last he told me that he hadn't come from you at
all, but had merely wanted to find out if I knew you, and how
intimate we were. He had been sent by Douglas; and he wanted to know
right away how much I had told you about Douglas, and why I had done
it. Of course, I denied that I had told anything. Heavens, what a
time he gave me!" 

Claire paused. "Mary, how could you have played such a trick upon
me?" 

"I had no thought of doing you any harm," I replied. "I was simply
trying to help Sylvia." 

"To help her at any expense!" 

"Tell me, what will come of it? Are you afraid they'll cut off your
allowance?" 

"That's the threat." 

"But will they carry it out?" 

She sat, gazing at me resentfully. "I don't know whether I ought to
trust you any more," she said. 

"Do what you please about that," I replied. "I don't want to urge
you." 

She hesitated a bit longer, and then decided to throw herself upon
my mercy. They would not dare to carry out their threat, so long as
Sylvia had not found out the whole truth. So now she had come to beg
me to tell no more than I had already told. She was utterly abject
about it. I had pretended to be her friend, I had won her confidence
and listened to her confessions; how did I wish to ruin her utterly,
to have her cast out on the street? 

Poor Claire! I said in the early part of my story that she
understood the language of idealism; but I wonder what I have told
about her that justifies this. The truth is, she was going down so
fast that already she seemed a different person; and she had been
frightened by the thin-lipped old family lawyer, so that she was
incapable of even a decent pretence. 

"Claire," I said, "there is no need for you to go on like this. I
have not the slightest intention of telling Sylvia about you. I
cannot imagine the circumstances that would make me want to tell
her. Even if I should do it, I would tell her in confidence, so that
her husband would never have any idea----" 

She went almost wild at this. To imagine that a woman would keep
such a confidence! As if she would not throw it at her husband's
head the first time they quarreled! Besides, if Sylvia knew this
truth, she might leave him; and if she left him, Claire's hold on
his money would be gone. 

Over this money we had a long and lachrymose interview. And at the
end of it, there she sat gazing into space, baffled and bewildered.
What kind of a woman was I? How had I got to be the friend of Sylvia
van Tuiver? What had she seen in me, and what did I expect to get
out of her? I answered briefly; and suddenly Claire was overwhelmed
by a rush of curiosity--plain human curiosity. What was Sylvia like?
Was she as clever as they said? What was the baby like, and how was
Sylvia taking the misfortune? Could it really be true that I had
been visiting the van Tuivers in Florida, as old Rossiter Torrance
had implied? 

Needless to say, I did not answer these questions freely. And I
really think my visitor was more pained by my uncommunicativeness
than she was by my betrayal of her. It was interesting also to
notice a subtle difference in her treatment of me. Gone was the
slight touch of condescension, gone was most of the familiarity! I
had become a personage, a treasurer of high state secrets, an
intimate of the great ones! There must be something more to me than
Claire had realized before! 

Poor Claire! She passes here from this story. For years thereafter I
used to catch a glimpse of her now and then, in the haunts of the
birds of gorgeous plumage; but I never got a chance to speak to her,
nor did she ever call on me again. So I do not know if Douglas van
Tuiver still continues her eight thousand a year. All I can say is
that when I saw her, her plumage was as gorgeous as ever, and its
style duly certified to the world that it had not been held over
from a previous season of prosperity. Twice I thought she had been
drinking too much; but then--so had many of the other ladies with
the little glasses of bright-coloured liquids before them. 

8. For the rest of that year I knew nothing about Sylvia except what
I read in the "society" column of my newspaper--that she was
spending the late summer in her husband's castle in Scotland. I
myself was suffering from the strain of what I had been through, and
had to take a vacation. I went West; and when I came back in the
fall, to plunge again into my work, I read that the van Tuivers, in
their yacht, the "Triton," were in the Mediterranean, and were
planning to spend the winter in Japan. 

And then one day in January, like a bolt from the blue, came a
cablegram from Sylvia, dated Cairo: "Sailing for New York, Steamship
'Atlantic,' are you there, answer." 

Of course I answered. And I consulted the sailing-lists, and waited,
wild with impatience. She sent me a wireless, two days out, and so I
was at the pier when the great vessel docked. Yes, there she was,
waving her handkerchief to me; and there by her side stood her
husband. 

It was a long, cold ordeal, while the ship was warped in. We could
only gaze at each other across the distance, and stamp our feet and
beat our hands. There were other friends waiting for the van
Tuivers, I saw, and so I held myself in the background, full of a
thousand wild speculations. How incredible that Sylvia, arriving
with her husband, should have summoned me to meet her! 

At last the gangway was let down, and the stream of passengers began
to flow. In time came the van Tuivers, and their friends gathered to
welcome them. I waited; and at last Sylvia came to me--outwardly
calm--but with her emotions in the pressure of her two hands. "Oh,
Mary, Mary!" she murmured. "I'm so glad to see you! I'm so glad to
see you!" 

"What has happened?" I asked. 

Her voice went to a whisper. "I am leaving my husband." 

"Leaving your husband!" I stood, dumbfounded. 

"Leaving him for ever, Mary." 

"But--but----" I could not finish the sentence. My eyes moved to
where he stood, calmly chatting with his friends. 

"He insisted on coming back with me, to preserve appearances. He is
terrified of the gossip. He is going all the way home, and then
leave me." 

"Sylvia! What does it mean?" I whispered. 

"I can't tell you here. I want to come and see you. Are you living
at the same place?" 

I answered in the affirmative. 

"It's a long story," she added. "I must apologise for asking you to
come here, where we can't talk. But I did it for an important
reason. I can't make my husband really believe that I mean what I
say; and you are my Declaration of Independence!" And she laughed,
but a trifle wildly, and looking at her suddenly, I realized that
she was keyed almost to the breaking point. 

"You poor dear!" I murmured. 

"I wanted to show him that I meant what I said. I wanted him to see
us meet. You see, he's going home, thinking that with the help of my
people he can make me change my mind." 

"But why do you go home? Why not stay here with me? There's an
apartment vacant next to mine." 

"And with a baby?" 

"There are lots of babies in our tenement," I said. But to tell the
truth, I had almost forgotten the baby in the excitement of the
moment. "How is she," I asked. 

"Come and see," said Sylvia; and when I glanced enquiringly at the
tall gentleman who was chatting with his friends, she added, "She's
_my_ baby, and I have a right to show her." 

The nurse, a rosy-cheeked English girl in a blue dress and a bonnet
with long streamers, stood apart, holding an armful of white silk
and lace. Sylvia turned back the coverings; and again I beheld the
vision which had so thrilled me--the comical little miniature of
herself--her nose, her lips, her golden hair. But oh, the pitiful
little eyes, that did not move! I looked at my friend, uncertain
what I should say; I was startled to see her whole being aglow with
mother-pride. "Isn't she a dear?" she whispered. "And, Mary, she's
learning so fast, and growing--you couldn't believe it!" Oh, the
marvel of mother-love, I thought--that is blinder than any child it
ever bore! 

We turned away; and Sylvia said, "I'll come to you as soon as I've
got the baby settled. Our train starts for the South to-night, so I
shan't waste any time." 

"God bless you, dear," I whispered; and she gave my hand a squeeze,
and turned away. I stood for a few moments watching, and saw her
approach her husband, and exchange a few smiling words with him in
the presence of their friends. I, knowing the agony that was in the
hearts of that desperate young couple, marvelled anew at the
discipline of caste. 

9. She sat in my big arm-chair; and how proud I was of her, and how
thrilled by her courage. Above all, however, I was devoured by
curiosity. "Tell me!" I exclaimed. 

"There's so much," she said. 

"Tell me why you are leaving him." 

"Mary, because I don't love him. That's the one reason. I have
thought it out--I have thought of little else for the last year. I
have come to see that it is wrong for a woman to live with a man she
does not love. It is the supreme crime a woman can commit." 

"Ah, yes!" I said. "If you have got that far!" 

"I have got that far. Other things have contributed, but they are
not the real things--they might have been forgiven. The fact that he
had this disease, and made my child blind----" 

"Oh! You found out that?" 

"Yes, I found it out." 

"How?" 

"It came to me little by little. In the end, he grew tired of
pretending, I think." She paused for a moment, then went on, "The
trouble was over the question of my obligations as a wife. You see,
I had told him at the outset that I was going to live for my baby,
and for her alone. That was the ground upon which he had persuaded
me not to see you or read any of your letters. I was to ask no
questions, and be nice and bovine--and I agreed. But then, a few
months ago, my husband came to me with the story of his needs. He
said that the doctors had given their sanction to our reunion. Of
course, I was stunned. I knew that he had understood me before we
left Florida."

She stopped. "Yes, dear," I said, gently. 

"Well, he said now the doctors were agreed there was no danger to
either of us. We could take precautions and not have children. I
could only plead that the whole subject was distressing to me. He
had asked me to put off my problems till my baby was weaned; now I
asked him to put off his. But that would not do, it seemed. He took
to arguing with me. It was an unnatural way to live, and he could
not endure it. I was a woman, and I couldn't understand this. It
seemed utterly impossible to make him realize what I felt. I suppose
he has always had what he wanted, and he simply does not know what
it is to be denied. It wasn't only a physical thing, I think; it was
an affront to his pride, a denial of his authority." She stopped,
and I saw her shudder. 

"I have been through it all," I said. 

"He wanted to know how long I expected to withhold myself. I said,
'Until I have got this disease out of my mind, as well as out of my
body; until I know that there is no possibility of either of us
having it, to give to the other.' But then, after I had taken a
little more time to think it over, I said, 'Douglas, I must be
honest with you. I shall never be able to live with you again. It is
no longer a question of your wishes or mine--it is a question of
right or wrong. I do not love you. I know now that it can never
under any circumstances be right for a woman to give herself in the
intimacy of the sex-relation without love. When she does it, she is
violating the deepest instinct of her nature, the very voice of God
in her soul.' 

"His reply was, 'Why didn't you know that before you married?' 

"I answered, 'I did not know what marriage meant; and I let myself
be persuaded by others.' 

"'By your own mother!' he declared. 

"I said, 'A mother who permits her daughter to commit such an
offence is either a slave-dealer, or else a slave.' Of course, he
thought I was out of my mind at that. He argued about the duties of
marriage, the preserving of the home, wives submitting themselves to
their husbands, and so on. He would not give me any peace----" 

And suddenly she started up. I saw in her eyes the light of old
battles. "Oh, it was a horror!" she cried, beginning to pace the
floor. "It seemed to me that I was living the agony of all the
loveless marriages of the world. I felt myself pursued, not merely
by the importunate desires of one man--I suffered with all the
millions of women who give themselves night after night without
love! He came to seem like some monster to me; I could not meet him
unexpectedly without starting. I forbade him to mention the subject
to me again, and for a long time he obeyed. But several weeks ago he
brought it up afresh, and I lost my self-control completely.
'Douglas,' I said, 'I can stand it no longer! It is not only the
tragedy of my blind child--it's that you have driven me to hate you.
You have crushed all the life and joy and youth out of me! You've
been to me like a terrible black cloud, constantly pressing down on
me, smothering me. You stalk around me like a grim, sepulchral
figure, closing me up in the circle of your narrow ideas. But now I
can endure it no longer. I was a proud, high-spirited girl, you've
made of me a colourless social automaton, a slave of your stupid
worldly traditions. I'm turning into a feeble, complaining,
discontented wife! And I refuse to be it. I'm going home--where at
least there's some human spontaneity left in people; I'm going back
to my father!'--And I went and looked up the next steamer!" 

She stopped. She stood before me, with the fire of her wild Southern
blood shining in her cheeks and in her eyes. 

I sat waiting, and finally she went on, "I won't repeat all his
protests. When he found that I was really going, he offered to take
me in the yacht, but I wouldn't go in the yacht. I had got to be
really afraid of him--sometimes, you know, his obstinacy seems to be
abnormal, almost insane. So then he decided he would have to go in
the steamer with me to preserve appearances. I had a letter saying
that papa was not well, and he said that would serve for an excuse.
He is going to Castleman County, and after he has stayed a week or
so, he is going off on a hunting-trip, and not return." 

"And will he do it?" 

"I don't think he expects to do it at present. I feel sure he has
the idea of starting mamma to quoting the Bible to me, and dragging
me down with her tears. But I have done all I can to make clear to
him that it will make no difference. I told him I would not say a
word about my intentions at home until he had gone away, and that I
expected the same silence from him. But, of course--" She stopped
abruptly, and after a moment she asked: "What do you think of it,
Mary?" 

I leaned forward and took her two hands in mine. "Only," I said,
"that I'm glad you fought it out alone! I knew it had to come--and I
didn't want to have to help you to decide!" 

10. She sat for a while absorbed in her own thoughts. Knowing her as
I did, I understood what intense emotions were seething within her,
what a terrific struggle her decision must have represented. 

"Dear Friend," she said, suddenly, "don't think I haven't seen his
side of the case. I try to tell myself that I dealt with him frankly
from the beginning. But then I ask was there ever a man I dealt with
frankly? There was coquetry in the very clothes I wore! And now that
we are so entangled, now that he loves me, what is my duty? I find I
can't respect his love for me. A part of it is because my beauty
fascinates him, but more of it seems to me just wounded vanity. I
was the only woman who ever flouted him, and he has a kind of
snobbery that made him think I must be something remarkable because
of it. I talked that all out with him--yes, I've dragged him
through all that humiliation. I wanted to make him see that he
didn't really love me, that he only wanted to conquer me, to force
me to admire him and submit to him. I want to be myself, and he
wants to be himself--that has always been the issue between us." 

"That is the issue in many unhappy marriages," I said. 

"I've done a lot of thinking in the last year," she resumed--"about
things generally, I mean. We American women think we are so free.
That is because our husbands indulge us, give us money, and let us
run about. But when it comes to real freedom--freedom of intellect
and of character, English women are simply another kind of being
from us. I met a cabinet minister's wife--he's a Conservative in
everything, and she's an ardent suffragist; she not merely gives
money, she makes speeches and has a public name. Yet they are
friends, and have a happy home-life. Do you suppose my husband would
consider such an arrangement?" 

"I thought he admired English ways," I said. 

"There was the Honorable Betty Annersley--the sister of a chum of
his. She was friendly with the militants, and I wanted to talk to
her to understand what such women thought. Yet my husband tried to
stop me from going to see her. And it's the same way with everything
I try to do, that threatens to take me out of his power. He wanted
me to accept the authority of the doctors as to any possible danger
from venereal disease. When I got the books, and showed him what the
doctors admitted about the question--the narrow margin of safety
they allowed, the terrible chances they took--he was angry again." 

She stopped, seeing a question in my eyes. "I've been reading up on
the subject," she explained. "I know it all now--the things I should
have known before I married." 

"How did you manage that?" 

"I tried to get two of the doctors to give me something to read, but
they wouldn't hear of it. I'd set myself crazy imagining things, it
was no sort of stuff for a woman's mind. So in the end I took the
bit in my teeth. I found a medical book store, and I went in and
said: 'I am an American physician, and I want to see the latest
works on venereal disease.' So the clerk took me to the shelves, and
I picked out a couple of volumes." 

"You poor child!" I exclaimed. 

"When Douglas found that I was reading these books he threatened to
burn them. I told him 'There are more copies in the store, and I am
determined to be educated on this subject.'" 

She paused. "How much like my own experience!" I thought. 

"There were chapters on the subject of wives, how much they were not
told, and why this was. So very quickly I began to see around my own
experience. Douglas must have figured out that this would be so, for
the end of the matter was an admission." 

"You don't mean he confessed to you!" 

She smiled bitterly. "No," she said. "He brought Dr. Perrin to
London to do it for him. Dr. Perrin said he had concluded I had best
know that my husband had had some symptoms of the disease. He, the
doctor, wished to tell me who was to blame for the attempt to
deceive me. Douglas had been willing to admit the truth, but all the
doctors had forbidden it. I must realise the fearful problem they
had, and not blame them, and, above all I must not blame my husband,
who had been in their hands in the matter." 

"How stupid men are! As if that would excuse him!" 

"I'm afraid I showed the little man how poor an impression he had
made--both for himself and for his patron. But I had suffered all
there was to suffer, and I was tired of pretending. I told him it
would have been far better for them if they had told me the truth at
the beginning." 

"Ah, yes!" I said. "That is what I tried to make them see; but all I
got for it was a sentence of deportation!" 

11. When Sylvia's train arrived at the station of her home town, the
whole family was waiting upon the platform for her, and a good part
of the town besides. The news that she had arrived in New York, and
was coming home on account of her father's illness, had, of course,
been reproduced in all the local papers, with the result that the
worthy major had been deluged with telegrams and letters concerning
his health. Notwithstanding, he had insisted upon coming to the
train to meet his daughter. He was not going to be shut up in a
sickroom to please all the gossips of two hemispheres. In his best
black broad-cloth, his broad, black hat newly brushed, and his
old-fashioned, square-toed shoes newly shined, he paced up and down
the station platform for half an hour, and it was to his arms that
Sylvia flew when she alighted from the train. 

There was "Miss Margaret," who had squeezed her large person and
fluttering draperies out of the family automobile, and was waiting
to shed tears over her favourite daughter; there was Celeste,
radiant with a wonderful piece of news which she alone was to impart
to her sister; there were Peggy and Maria, shot up suddenly into two
amazingly-gawky girls; there was Master Castleman Lysle, the only
son of the house, with his black-eyed and bad-tempered French
governess. And finally there was Aunt Varina, palpitating with
various agitations, not daring to whisper to anyone else the fears
which this sudden home-coming inspired in her. Bishop Chilton and
his wife were away, but a delegation of cousins had come; also Uncle
Mandeville Castleman had sent a huge bunch of roses, which were in
the family automobile, and Uncle Barry Chilton had sent a pair of
wild turkeys, which were soon to be in the family. 

Behind Sylvia stalked her cold and haughty husband, and behind him
tripped the wonderful nursemaid, with her wonderful blue streamers,
and her wonderful bundle of ruffles and lace. All the huge family
had to fall upon Sylvia and kiss and embrace her rapturously, and
shake the hand of the cold and haughty husband, and peer into the
wonderful bundle, and go into ecstasies over its contents. Rarely,
indeed, did the great ones of this earth condescend to spread so
much of their emotional life before the public gaze; and was it any
wonder that the town crowded about, and the proprieties were
temporarily repealed? 

It had never been published, but it was generally known throughout
the State that Sylvia's child was blind, and it was whispered that
this portended something strange and awful. So there hung about the
young mother and the precious bundle an atmosphere of mystery and
melancholy. How had she taken her misfortune? How had she taken all
the great events that had befallen her--her progress through the
courts and camps of Europe? Would she still condescend to know her
fellow-townsmen? Many were the hearts that beat high as she bestowed
her largess of smiles and friendly words. There were even humble old
negroes who went off enraptured to tell the town that "Mi' Sylvia"
had actually shaken hands with them. There was almost a cheer from
the crowd as the string of automobiles set out for Castleman Hall. 

12. There was a grand banquet that evening, at which the turkeys
entered the family. Not in years had there been so many people
crowded into the big dining-room, nor so many servants treading upon
each other's toes in the kitchen. 

Such a din of chatter and laughter! Sylvia was her old radiant self,
and her husband was quite evidently charmed by the patriarchal
scene. He was affable, really genial, and won the hearts of
everybody; he told the good major, amid a hush which almost turned
his words into a speech, that he was able to understand how they of
the South loved their own section so passionately; there was about
the life an intangible something--a spell, an elevation of spirit,
which set it quite apart by itself. And since this was the thing
which they of the South most delighted to believe concerning
themselves, they listened enraptured, and set the speaker apart as a
rare and discerning spirit. 

Afterwards came the voice of Sylvia: "You must beware of Douglas,
Papa; he is an inveterate flatterer." She laughed as she said it;
and of those present it was Aunt Varina alone who caught the ominous
note, and saw the bitter curl of her lips as she spoke. Aunt Varina
and her niece were the only persons there who knew Douglas van
Tuiver well enough to appreciate the irony of the term "inveterate
flatterer." 

Sylvia realized at once that her husband was setting out upon a
campaign to win her family to his side. He rode about the major's
plantations, absorbing information about the bollweevil. He rode
back to the house, and exchanged cigars, and listened to stories of
the major's boyhood during the war. He went to call upon Bishop
Chilton, and sat in his study, with its walls of faded black volumes
on theology. Van Tuiver himself had had a Church of England tutor,
and was a punctilious high churchman; but he listened respectfully
to arguments for a simpler form of church organization, and took
away a voluminous _exposГ©_ of the fallacies of "Apostolic
Succession." And then came Aunt Nannie, ambitious and alert as when
she had helped the young millionaire to find a wife; and the young
millionaire made the suggestion that Aunt Nannie's third daughter
should not fail to visit Sylvia at Newport. 

There was no limit, apparently, to what he would do. He took Master
Castleman Lysle upon his knee, and let him drop a valuable watch
upon the floor. He got up early in the morning and went horse-back
riding with Peggy and Maria. He took Celeste automobiling, and
helped by his attentions to impress the cocksure young man with whom
Celeste was in love. He won "Miss Margaret" by these attentions to
all her children, and the patience with which he listened to
accounts of the ailments which had afflicted the precious ones at
various periods of their lives. To Sylvia, watching all these
proceedings, it was as if he were binding himself to her with so
many knots. 

She had come home with a longing to be quiet, to avoid seeing
anyone. But this could not be, she discovered. There was gossip
about the child's blindness, and the significance thereof; and to
have gone into hiding would have meant an admission of the worst.
The ladies of the family had prepared a grand "reception," at which
all Castleman County was to come and gaze upon the happy mother. And
then there was the monthly dance at the Country Club, where
everybody would come, in the hope of seeing the royal pair. To
Sylvia it was as if her mother and aunts were behind her every
minute of the day, pushing her out into the world. "Go on, go on!
Show yourself! Do not let people begin to talk!" 

13. She bore it for a couple of weeks; then she went to her cousin,
Harley Chilton. "Harley," she said, "my husband is anxious to go on
a hunting-trip. Will you go with him?" 

"When?" asked the boy. 

"Right away; to-morrow or the next day." 

"I'm game," said Harley. 

After which she went to her husband. "Douglas, it is time for you to
go." 

He sat studying her face. "You still have that idea?" he said, at
last. 

"I still have it." 

"I was hoping that here, among your home-people, your sanity would
partially return." 

"I know what you have been hoping, Douglas. And I am sorry--but I am
quite unchanged." 

"Have we not been getting along happily here?" he demanded. 

"No, I have not--I have been wretched. And I cannot have any peace
until you no longer haunt me. I am sorry for you, but I must be
alone--and so long as you are here the entertainments will
continue." 

"We could make it clear that we did not care for entertainments. We
could find some quiet place near your people, where we could live in
peace." 

"Douglas," she said, "I have spoken to Cousin Harley. He is ready to
go hunting with you. Please call him up and make arrangements to
start to-morrow. If you are still here the following day, I shall
leave for one of Uncle Mandeville's plantations." 

There was a long silence. "Sylvia," he said, at last, "how long do
you imagine this behaviour of yours can continue?" 

"It will continue forever. My mind is made up. It is necessary that
you make up yours." 

Again he waited, while he made sure of his self-control. "You
propose to keep the baby with you?" he asked, at last. 

"For the present, yes. The baby cannot get along without me." 

"And for the future?" 

"We will make a fair arrangement as to that. Give me a little time
to get myself together, and then I will come and live somewhere near
you in New York, and I will arrange it so that you can see the child
as often as you please. I have no desire to take her from you--I
only want to take myself from you." 

"Sylvia," he said, "have you realized all the unhappiness this
course of yours is going to bring to your people?" 

"Oh, don't begin that now!" she pleaded. 

"I know," he said, "how determined you are to punish me. But I
should think you would try to find some way to spare them." 

"Douglas," she replied, "I know exactly what you have been doing. I
have watched your change of character since you came here. You may
be able to make my people so unhappy that I must be unhappy also.
You see how deeply I love them, how I yield everything for love of
them. But let me make it clear, I will not yield this. It was for
their sake I went into this marriage, but I have come to see that it
was wrong, and no power on earth can induce me to stay in it. My
mind is made up--I will not live with a man I do not love. I will
not even pretend to do it. Now do you understand me, Douglas?" 

There was a silence, while she waited for some word from him. When
none came, she asked, "You will arrange to go to-morrow?" 

He answered calmly, "I see no reason why I, your husband, should
permit you to pursue this insane course. You propose to leave me;
and the reason you give is one that would, if it were valid, break
up two-thirds of the homes in the country. Your own family will
stand by me in my effort to prevent your ruin." 

"What do you expect to do?" she asked in a suppressed voice. 

"I have to assume that my wife is insane; and I shall look after her
till she comes to her senses." 

She sat watching him for a few moments, wondering at him. Then she
said, "You are willing to stay on here, day after day, pursuing me
in the only refuge I have. Well then, I shall not consider your
feelings. I have a work to do here--and I think that when I begin
it, you will want to be far away." 

"What do you mean?" he asked--and he looked at her as if she were
really a maniac. 

"You see my sister Celeste is about to marry. That was the wonderful
news she had to tell me at the depot. It happens that I have known
Roger Peyton all my life, and know he has the reputation of being
one of the 'fastest' boys in the town." 

"Well?" he asked. 

"Just this, Douglas--I do not intend to leave my sister unprotected
as I was. I am going to tell her about Elaine. I am going to tell
her all that she needs to know. It is bound to mean arguments with
the old people, and in the end the whole family will be discussing
the subject. I feel sure you will not care to be here under such
circumstances." 

"And may I ask when this begins?" he inquired, with intense
bitterness in his tone. 

"Right away," she said. "I have merely been waiting until you should
go."

He said not a word, but she knew by the expression on his face that
she had carried her point at last. He turned and left the room; and
that was the last word she had with him, save for their formal
parting in the presence of the family. 

14. Roger Peyton was the son and heir of one of the oldest families
in Castleman County. I had heard of this family before--in a
wonderful story that Sylvia told of the burning of "Rose Briar,"
their stately mansion, some years previously: how the neighbours had
turned out to extinguish the flames, and failing, had danced a last
whirl in the ball-room, while the fire roared in the stories
overhead. The house had since been rebuilt, more splendid than ever,
and the prestige of the family stood undiminished. One of the sons
was an old "flame" of Sylvia's, and another was married to one of
the Chilton girls. As for Celeste, she had been angling for Roger
the past year or two, and she stood now at the apex of happiness. 

Sylvia went to her father, to talk with him about the difficult
subject of venereal disease. The poor major had never expected to
live to hear such a discourse from a daughter of his; however, with
the blind child under his roof, he could not find words to stop her.
"But, Sylvia," he protested, "what reason have you to suspect such a
thing of Roger Peyton?" 

"I have the reason of his life. You know that he has the reputation
of being 'fast'; you know that he drinks, you know that I once
refused to speak to him because he danced with me when he was
drunk." 

"My child, all the men you know have sowed their wild oats." 

"Papa, you must not take advantage of me in such a discussion. I
don't claim to know what sins may be included in the phrase 'wild
oats.' Let us speak frankly--can you say that you think it unlikely
that Roger Peyton has been unchaste?" 

The major hesitated and coughed; finally he said: "The boy drinks,
Sylvia; further than that I have no knowledge." 

"The medical books tell me that the use of alcohol tends to break
down self-control, and to make continence impossible. And if that be
true, you must admit that we have a right to ask assurances. What do
you suppose that Roger and his crowd are doing when they go
roistering about the streets at night? What do they do when they go
off to Mardi Gras? Or at college--you know that Cousin Clive had to
get him out of trouble several times. Go and ask Clive if Roger has
ever been exposed to the possibility of these diseases." 

"My child," said the major, "Clive would not feel he had the right
to tell me such things about his friend." 

"Not even when the friend wants to marry his cousin?" 

"But such questions are not asked, my daughter." 

"Papa, I have thought this matter out carefully, and I hava
something definite to propose to you. I have no idea of stopping
with what Clive Chilton may or may not see fit to tell about his
chum. I want _you_ to go to Roger." 

Major Castleman's face wore a blank stare. 

"If he's going to marry your daughter, you have the right to ask
about his past. What I want you to tell him is that you will get the
name of a reputable specialist in these diseases, and that before he
can have your daughter he must present you with a letter from this
man, to the effect that he is fit to marry." 

The poor major was all but speechless. "My child, who ever heard of
such a proposition?" 

"I don't know that any one ever did, papa. But it seems to me time
they should begin to hear of it; and I don't see who can have a
better right to take the first step than you and I, who have paid
such a dreadful price for our neglect." 

Sylvia had been prepared for opposition--the instinctive opposition
which men manifest to having this embarrassing subject dragged out
into the light of day. Even men who have been chaste
themselves--good fathers of families like the major--cannot be
unaware of the complications incidental to frightening their
women-folk, and setting up an impossibly high standard in
sons-in-law. But Sylvia stood by her guns; at last she brought her
father to his knees by the threat that if he could not bring himself
to talk with Roger Peyton, she, Sylvia Castleman, would do it. 

15. The young suitor came by appointment the next day, and had a
session with the Major in his office. After he had gone, Sylvia went
to her father and found him pacing the floor, with an extinct cigar
between his lips, and several other ruined cigars lying on the
hearth. 

"You asked him, papa?" 

"I did, Sylvia." 

"And what did he say?" 

"Why, daughter----" The major flung his cigar from him with
desperate energy. "It was most embarrassing!" he exclaimed--"most
painful!" His pale old face was crimson with blushes. 

"Go on, papa," said Sylvia, gentle but firm. 

"The poor boy--naturally, Sylvia, he could not but feel hurt that I
should think it necessary to ask such questions. Such things are not
done, my child. It seemed to him that I must look upon him as--well,
as much worse than other young fellows----" 

The old man stopped, and began to walk restlessly up and down. "Yes,
papa," said Sylvia. "What else?" 

"Well, he said it seemed to him that such a matter might have been
left to the honour of a man whom I was willing to think of as a
son-in-law. And you see, my child, what an embarrassing position I
was in; I could not give him any hint as to my reason for being
anxious about these matters--anything, you understand, that might be
to the discredit of your husband." 

"Go on, papa." 

"Well, I gave him a fatherly talking to about his way of life." 

"Did you ask him the definite question as to his health?"